8 ft & 11 inch portrait “Identity”

“Identity”, Opening Reception at Riverfront Art Gallery

Artist Statement

My work focuses on my personal life experiences. Other aspects of my artwork are from a fictional imagined vantage point. For instance, making the invisible visible, and transcending time by playing with memories/images from my past and present to come to a conclusion about how my future will look. My life was dramatically altered. My identical twin sister Emely Gómez passed away suddenly. This has taken my artwork and life in a completely new direction. As an identical twin, I am able to use my own image to represent both my sister and myself.  With this special gift of forever having the image of my sister within my face, I am able to recreate new memories both with and without her and capture it on film. My image has come to represent three entities- my sister, my twin hood, and myself.

The theme of my work relates to intuitive thought, emptiness and cognitive awareness. Another series of photographs, have a ghostly blur-symbolic of my former spirit and future spiritual essence. I am an artist that tears open her heart and isn’t afraid to use my own emotions to communicate my journey. My ghostly image series, explores my interest in space and people’s relationship to space, I can express my feelings of blankness and being frozen in time after Emely passed away. The emotional transition of the first six months without Emely is a part of my everyday life: feeling as though time has stopped, and I am in an alternate dream-like universe. There was indescribable balance and support we gave each other while she was here, we are a whole, unbroken.

The idea of a self-portrait to some may seem as simple as looking in the mirror.  But, as a twin, a self-portrait is not just a portrait of one person-it is of two people. Now I look for Emely in shadows, dreams, photos, memories.  In my search for my twin, I have realized that I am beginning to find myself.  And, while this new self does not have a twin sister physically present, it is none-the-less as uniquely beautiful as it always was.  While reinventing my identity was not something I had welcomed-I could not run from it.  By exploring my inner self I have come to the conclusion that my other half is always with me.  I see her every day in my own face, and with this gift of being a twin, I am able to have others see her forever in my work with the use of my image.  It is this idea that drives my passion as a creator.  My connection to Emely has enabled me to use photography as a portal through which I occasionally rekindle a moment in time with her and continue making new ones.